Puzzled

Have you ever tried to do a puzzle that has half the pieces missing? SO frustrating, right? Even if there are just one or two pieces gone, I am left feeling dissatisfied. The picture is not complete, the puzzle is not finished, and I will not be content until it is! Maybe I could create a piece that would fit and nobody would ever notice the difference... But I would.

I was thinking about this last night; not about puzzles, no, but about people and situations. When you lose a friend for whatever reason, it's like someone has taken a piece of your very own puzzle. Now what? The picture is ruined! There is a big gap missing, and not just any gap... This 'individual' piece had it's own shape, it's own colours, it's own part of this work of art, and a huge effect of the end product being the picture itself. Another piece may come along that could possibly fit if you hammered it down hard enough to try and force it into the mold, but truth is that it just doesn't fit.

It's the same with situations. Say you have and idea, yup a fifty-thousand piece idea. It takes a while to get that all together, a really really long while. But as each piece slowly lands in it's perfect place, and you know that each one fits perfectly into the given slot, a picture starts to form. It is not just any picture either, it is one that has been specifically designed for YOU!

Life may seem like such a long puzzle, and really it is, but if we are just patient and let the pieces fall into place, soon it won't seem so 'puzzling' after all. The more pieces you find too, the easier it is to find the next.

So in the end I come back to God, like I should have done in the beginning, because He fits every hole in my life and knows the 'bigger-picture' that's taking my whole life to see. So why is it so hard to comprehend God fitting all the missing areas? He's the one who created the puzzle in the first place! He knows every little piece of it by heart, and when we let him do it, he puts pieces together in a way that we never could have imagined. He is the artist, the designer, the one who takes the time to carve out each piece individually and gently hand it to us. I love my picture because it's not like anything I have ever seen, it's one of a kind and complete in The Creator.

Living On The Edge

Well, this is my first blog... EVER! I'm kinda excited because I've never done anything like this before. You see, I'm not one of those people who can just sit down and write in a journal... I can write songs, that's it, but once I'm at a computer it's a different story. Maybe I'm secretly afraid of messing up and having to start over on a new "piece of paper" (haha Psychology in college messes up the ability to think regular non-analytic thoughts about any situation)

So the other day I went to the movies with my family, which got me thinking about some of the movies I love to watch. When I watch a movie, I lose myself in it, let myself be taken in as one of the characters and then have that aweful sinking feeling once it's all over...

I love life, don't get me wrong, but I just get so bored with my personal one sometimes.

Most of the movies I get into have dangerous situations; now when I say this, I don't necessarily mean physical danger, love can be dangerous too! I find myself in situations like jumping from a plane that is about to explode, running from cops, finding romance in the middle of a zombie fight or pirate war, being able to jump through time, falling down a hole into a magical/terrifying world of creepy cats and crazy guys with weired hats who drink tea, falling in-love with some random vampire who could potentially kill you at any moment, or even being able to fly on a magic carpet with a blue genie... Now I'm not crazy, I know when to "snap out of it," i know the difference between fantacy and reality, but let me explain why I get so into these scenarios:

Think about your favorite action movie, favorite comedy, or even romance? Now think of how it ends... does it end horribly? I DOUBT it... All these movies that invole high-risk life threatening moments, or complications in a relationship that no one would normally be willing to work through, or crazy-awesome stunts that you wouldn't dream of pulling... These fictitious characters have NO consequenses in the end... NONE... It always works out in the end. Imaging being able do to whatever you want and always get away with it!

"Ok so you just blew up a ship, but since you're so cool and did it with flare, we won't charge you with any of the damages (just put it on my tab)."

"Ok so you just interrupted my wedding to tell me you love me... Well of course I love you too! Lets get married... TODAY!"

"Ok so you just got shot at by hundreds of marksmen... Lucky you didn't get hit...

........ get my flow?

At the end of the day I'm SO happy with the life God has given me, and I think I would get bored if no-one ever cared about my reckless actions. That's the most exciting part! Having cops looking for you and only just getting away with it, letting yourself fall for someone who may not be the person everyone else wants for you, or even something as small as waiting until the night before it's due-to do an important paper. These thrills and "unknowns" are all part of what makes life interesting and exciting! Knowing that if you mess up, someone will call you out on it, or at least say SOMETHING...

And you know what: even with all these boundaries, I still have loads of crazy things I can do without getting into too much trouble.